First, I would like to say:
I know it’s a late greeting but I had been away for few days and unable to write something (even a scheduled post). I promised to share my trip to Ijen crater on January 3 (East Java Trip Day 1- Mount Bromo) but I failed to write it up.
About a couple of months ago, late October to be precised, the memory of my Mom kept coming to me. Everything I see kept reminding me of her. I have teary eyes even when I was on public transportation simply because I saw a place I used to visit with her. I know you must tired reading about my mom who no longer with me. I guess the problem of having a mother who is also a best friend is the trouble of letting go. I mean I already accept the fact that she is gone and I am happy for her because she finally can sleep soundly without feeling the cancer hurting her every night but I can’t just shake the feeling of longing to talk to her, to go somewhere with her. Two months ago, all I could think about was her and somehow I felt like she was calling me to visit her. I know it doesn’t make sense because human soul never linger on earth but still I have to go and see her grave.
December 17 marked the second year of her passing and I couldn’t write anything on that date because I couldn’t bear how much I miss her. I went to Padang on December 30 and visited her grave on December 31. I prayed for her and poured my heart out even though I know she couldn’t respond anymore but being there was already more than enough for me. Sometimes, I regret why she has to be buried there, so far away from where I lived…but that’s what she wanted. I am a bit bored with Padang but I will always come to that city because she is sleeping there for eternity. I miss you, Mama.
So sorry I have to begin my first post in 2014 with such sad story…now let’s reflect what had happened to me in 2013.
In 2013, I quit from my Job at a certain science course even though I hadn’t had new job. Fortunately, I had quite a lot of private students…financially, it helped a lot. Then in May 2013 I was accepted in an international based curriculum school. I was accepted as a full time teacher and I had to leave my previous school. I was touched when my students from my old school cried knowing I was about to leave them. It was touching but I still had to go because my old school was not promising. In my new school, I learned a lot of new things…I love the learning but it was so time consuming!! The new school and its new curriculum (new to me) had made me difficult to blog. I didn’t have much free time as I used to … but I think it’s all about time management. So, my first new year’s resolution is to manage time well between school work and blogging and reading.
Reading? … YES!! I had difficulty finding time to read 😦 In the past six month, I think I had only read 3 books!! Shame on me!!
Did you know that for the first time since 2011…I miss 1 month of Monthly Murphy?! I forgot to post about my favorite actor, Cillian Murphy, in December !! Gyaaaaaa this should NEVER happen again!!!
And…I hadn’t had time to continue my serial, Aqeela and Me, in the past two months!!
Apart from time management, I need to do a bit of diet…I am gaining weight faster than I am losing it!!
I guess that’s all I can say for my first post in 2014 🙂
These are the posts you will see after today’s post:
- Sherlock – The Empty Hearse ( what a come back!!! I love Sherlock-BBC more and more)
- Doctor Who Christmas Special ( not really good but I am still a whovian and it still deserves a review)
- East Java Trip Day 2 – Ijen Crater
- East Java Trip Day 2 – Baluran national Park
- East Java Trip Day 3,4 – Suramadu and Yogya
- Aqeela and Me Chapter 7
- Broken ( Cillian Murphy’s movie)
- The Street Lawyer (my first book in 2014)
- Top 5 Movies and Books in 2013
A huge thank you to everyone who kept coming back here and read and commented on things I had written….you guys are one of the reasons I keep writing ((hug))
I will close this post by saying:
Happy New Year to all my friends, fellow bloggers, and who ever stop by here…wishing you all the best in 2014.